When the student is ready.....The Master will appear ... the Tempter who will seduce me , the Challenger who will dare me with a whisper ,the Manipulator with whom I will find myself in situations I would never have thought myself capable of doing , the Teacher who will guide me to greater experiences , to heights I could never fathom on my own , the Sadist who will condition my mind to serve Him , and the Protector who will always keep me safe and lastly the Lover who will earn my complete devotion ..Devil , Saint or perhaps something in between or a bit of both , undefinable except in the depth and consistency in which He possesses me ...and oh how I long to be possessed...for my heart to be in chains .
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My Ideal Person:
If He is the One: 1. There is no task, no contemplation, no place I could be with Him and feel unsafe. I feel protected, secure and cocooned in His love and care. 2. I trust Him with my heart, my body, my mind, my time and my pleasure. And this gifting is not a burden, but a release... and with Him, I experience true freedom. 3. When I stand before Him... I am naked. I am not speaking of just physical nakedness, but emotional and spiritual as well. There is nothing between me and Him and neither would I want there to be as I feel like I can tell him anything. Anything that floats between our two consciousnesses feels like a heavy weight until it is shared. And He lifts this weight from me, so I am always light . 4. I feel loved. I feel totally accepted for who and what I am. I can be me, and it is right. And it is beautiful. And it feels good to be beautiful, cherished... and in love. 5. With His strength I am fearless. Nothing is impossible with Him by my side. 6. My love for Him is without boundary or conditions. There is nothing I would not do for Him. And I have a faith and trust, that He knows what I am capable of, and He knows how to lead me to be capable of more... 7. I live with a certainty that comes from a defined future. I am inspired by the certainty of His love. 8. I am owned by Him , a part of His whole being. When He is away from me, I crave Him so much it feels like I am holding my breath until He returns. He is the "sun" in my universe. 9. When I am with Him, and when I think of Him... I am Home. Where I was always meant to be. 10. No matter who He is or His importance, who depends on Him, what His work or responsibilities are, or how He lives... The moment I need Him, He is always there. And always will be the moment I need Him. And He does this because I am His heart. It is no effort, no strain, no struggle. He is. He loves. And He is mine as much as I am His. True ownership.
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